Spring break...I've got the week off. I was looking forward to a bit of rest and relaxation, but I don't think it's gonna happen. Shawn's doing another of his "backslide" routines, and he's got Jini all upset, and me wanting to kick his ass. I'm not even sure he came home last night. He stayed out all night Saturday - Jini was at work, and he asked if I'd mind watching Ana for a while so he could go with Robbie to Ashland City. Apparently he told Jini he was going to Jeremy's house. In actuality, he went to his friend Jesse's house and got drunk, and didn't come home. (He knows better than to come in drunk at our house.) Anyway, Jack had made plans for Sunday, but we wound up with Ana all day. Jini drove over to Jesse's to get Shawn, and took the long way home so she could chew on his ass. When they got back to the house, Jini had to go to work, and Shawn was too hung over to be left alone with the baby, so we cancelled our plans and stayed home.

He went to work yesterday, and Jini picked him up when he got off so he could go to his court-ordered AA meeting. He only has three left, then he'll be off probation. So she dropped him off at the AA meeting, which is three hours long, and when she went to pick him up, he wasn't there. His friend Jesse lives a couple of blocks from the place, and apparently he walked to Jesse's and got drunk. He and Jini argued back and forth via text message on their cell phones half the night; I stayed up a couple hours past my bedtime being a sounding board for Jini, then had a hard time sleeping because Shawn's breaking my heart again.

He came home in the wee hours of the morning to get his cigarettes and all the change he had laying around, and told Jini he "needed help destroying himself." He trashed the bedroom, but all he took was his phone charger and Jini's camera, and his change. Then he went back to Jesse's. So I guess he's fixing to lose yet another job, because I'm sure he hasn't bothered to even call in and pretend to be sick. I guess he's dumping Jini (and Ana, and the baby-to-be) again; I don't know if Michelle has anything to do with this scenario or not this time around; I certainly hope not, but she's always had some kind of spell over him, so nothing would surprise me.

Anyway....nuff said for now. Like I already stated, the chances of me enjoying my time off now hover right around slim and none. Jini's all tore up, and wants to hang right over my shoulder and cry and tell me what an asshole Shawn is being, as if it's anything new to me. He won't show his face around here for a day or two at least, the big chicken shit. And when he does, he won't talk to Jack or me either one. And I'll be so heartsick and pissed off I won't be able to talk to him either. I'm gonna go crawl off in a corner now....as if.....

I need a hug.....